i can talk the talk
…but can i actually walk the walk. i was laying in bed last night with my arm hanging over the edge thinking about how i am the only person who can change my life. ultimately it is my decision on whether or not i am going to live my life dreaming about how i want to be or actually living my life how i want to live it. i have always had the issue of standing back and day dreaming about the person i wanted to be and then suddenly waking up and realizing i am far from it. this saddens me. i mean well. i alway intend on changing and becoming this beautiful and wonderful person but i always fall short. i pray that i can overcome this horrible self of mine and actually do what i desire so badly. i think it is going to happen. i think i have gotten so fed up with myself and my lazy situation that i can’t NOT do something. i want to live my life and be the happiest me. i’m going to actually try. now.